e: stupid
Will all of yous kindly fuck up?
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The inner machincations of my mind are an enigma
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And yet I still feel ashamed at the contents within for some strange reason, but what is there of which to possess shame? All of it.
At least I know that the style in which I write can revert back to somewhat of a - okay, even if I still am at shool, for some reason, I cannot escape this "style." It has become a habit. Maybe if I tried actually, no, that will not work either. But I may try to take the...
No, I don't even know anymore. I should stop whatever it is I'm trying to do. Damn you, insufferable news post for changing my writing style from a moronic asshole into a pretentious, moronic asshole! Why do I always turn out like this whenever I write at length? a
And for that note, why does it always have to be about me? Well, it is my own thoughts.
Must stop whining here and post in writing lounge
Refuse to re read because it hurts to read
Want to take the advice seriously but am held aback by some force
Still complaining abou it here
Have only swapped one form of immaturity for another
Am still here
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
Should delete this but cannot
Should have shut up and been quiet a few hours ago
YAY
Willpower to do anything ha been sucked out of me
HOW DO I REGAIN THE STYLE OF WRITING THAT IS ME RATHER THAN THIS SHIT
I'm just going to sit and cry in a corner somewhere.
Why does writing at any length cause me to spout such drivel and change the way in which my thoughts are organised?
Now I feel even more ashamed like I should have never written this in the first place. Now I feel loke this page is the literal devil and should be exercised.
I could have just found aomethig to do to take my mind off of things, but no it had to be writing
And I could have shut up too, but I continued to write
And now I feel nothing bur shame should Michelle read past the first half
WHY DO I ALWAYS SHARE MY CRAP WITH ANYONE AND EVERYONE
I know, I can just hide in a box somewhere; they'll never find me
Always with the word psuedo. I hate that word for a psuedo intelectual was born inside me from years of being called smart by my peers
I am not that thing, I just happened to read a lot more Wikipedia at a very young age than the rest of you
And this image of being smart has been stewing inside me for many years. Then when I expect myself to be able to do something, anything, and fail, I feel suprised
I hate being called smart because now it developed a huge amount of arrogance and self-worth inside myself that I cannot hope to live up.
You know whom I blame? Those people that kept repeatin it to me a look time ago.
No, it is just me. Yay
outoutoutououtoytouorooutoytoutout out out oyt
Fucking pathetic this entire thing is
AND I WILL WAIT UNTIL TOMORROW AND FACE THE SHAME OF HAVING SHARED THIS
No, I might just hide.
Hiding is an all right plan; that way I do not have to face the one I........
FIND SOMETHIG ELSE WITH WHICH TO OCCUPY YOUR MIND YOU DUMB FUCK
It should be noted that every sentiment expressed here is completel natural and felt by everyone duin their course of living.
Completely normal
generic
of no importance
CONGRATULATIONS
YOU GET NOTHING
YOU LOSE
GOOD DAY, SIR
I SAID GOOD DAY
This self-directed rant isn't makin me look any better, isn't it?
I'm sorry.
Letiger
Even thought it is only the morning after I had posted this news post, my opinion on its contents has already changed. Like I had said before, what I once thought was some of the most "insightful" text up with which I could come is nothing more than a glorified version of, "OH MY GOD. BEING MY AGE IS SO HARD YOU HAVE NO IDEA LIKE COME ON."